My most considered, like, successful moment of my life was the worst The most depressed I've ever been Literally feeling like I'd probably be happier if I was just dead I got a number one on Billboard, my song is massive right now Like I may never have a song this big again My tour, I think every date sold out except one date So I literally had everything that I had always dreamed of happening (yeah) And I felt... I didn't feel happy at all And so I think what happened was I spiraled really bad 'Cause I was like, "I'm here, and if this is it, there's gotta be more for me 'Cause if this is it, like, it's not gonna work"