I can't help myself
From feeling alive
When I'm stuck in hell
Can't waste time to consider health
I'd get overwhelmed
And out of the shelf
I forget to eat and maybe look better
Hide it underneath my sweater
Can't swallow the things you don't chew
Like stimulants and shades of blue
Yesterday was still the same
I'll smoke a bit and change my name
I'll self destruct it's overdue (It's overdue)
I've been losing every single battle
I've been crawling out of my skin
And this frail state has me thinking
Maybe I'm the cause of this
I thought that it'd be easier to love the things I do
I've been celebrating anything to keep my thoughts in tune
But I can't stand to think that I might never find a point of view
That isn't fucked up
I've been losing every single battle
I've been crawling out of my skin
And this frail state has me thinking
Maybe I'm the cause of this
I've been losing every single battle
I've been crawling out of my skin
And this frail state has me thinking
Maybe I'm the cause of this