Sometimes I wish that I could hate you
Sometimes all I do is blame you
But it's never gonna make me feel better
I know it means I care but maybe did you ever
Did you ever think of me
When I said I'd never leave
While I'm waiting for an answer to a text you'll never read
If they wanted to, they would, and I do
But I don't know if the same applies to you
My therapist said my heart will eventually get tired
My friends say I just put myself through hell to get over it
'Cause I would love you til' it hurt
I'd do all I could to make it work
But I saw everything you couldn't see
I know you didn't give up on us easily
So I'd try again for what it's worth
If you came back and told me you were sure
So I hate to admit it but it's on replay in my head
All this thinking's got me thinking I'm not ready to get over it
Am I irrational to feel this?
I know there's little signs that I missed
But knowing what we know now would you change it
Do you think that your decision would've changed if
If we were in the same place
And you could say it to my face
Could we have worked it out
Or would you still have walked away
You said it's better like this and I believed you
But I don't know if I believe that I believed you
My therapist said my heart will eventually get tired
My friends say I just put myself through hell to get over it
'Cause I would love you til' it hurt
I'd do all I could to make it work
But I saw everything you couldn't see
I know you didn't give up on us easily
So I'd try again for what it's worth
If you came back and told me you were sure
So I hate to admit it but it's on replay in my head
All this thinking's got me thinking I'm not ready to get over it
Maybe I'm collateral damage
Life turned and you couldn't have planned it
But what does moving on even look like
When closure wasn't something we could get right
I still think of the way that we left things
Not the new year that I was expecting
It's been a few months, I should let go
But for what it's worth, I need you to know
I would love you til' it hurt
I'd do all I could to make it work
But I saw everything you couldn't see
I know you didn't give up on us easily
So I'd try again for what it's worth
If you came back and told me you were sure
So I hate to admit it but it's on replay in my head
All this thinking's got me thinking I'm not ready to get over it
'Cause I would love you til' it hurt
I'd do all I could to make it work
But I saw everything you couldn't see
I'd try again for what it's worth
If you were sure so I hate to admit it
But I don't think I'm ready to get over it