I can't do it bruv I'm tired and stressed
My mind is a mess I'm sick of living life in my head
Anxiety is like a knife in my chest
It makes it hard to breath
My heart is weak and it's dying for strength
I've seen shit that I still fucking dream about
I need to blow my brains on the wall
To let my demons out
I used to have a family but I don't see them now
It's why I'm so closed off and hardly get to leave the house
Look me in the eyes bruv, listen to my words
I know this shit's been hurting since the minute of your birth
And you're feeling like where you belong
Isn't here on Earth
But you got too much to give and this decision is the worst
Plus your little brothers need you
Rivers just diverse
Without you winding up in prison or a hearse
I know you wanna live to see your missus giving birth
And be there for your child
And be the dad that you deserve
I got it in my head that they'll be better when I'm gone
When I'm dead I hope they don't remember me at all
When they send me to the morgue
I don't want to be identified
I don't wanna be seen by any family or friends of mine
Especially with the best friend I ever had
I've already broken his heart
And I can't handle that
I'm too weak to carry the weight
Like cheap handle straps
Everything I ever had is gone
And I can't get it back
Well if for no-one else
Do it for you, brah
Do it to say fuck your past
Do it for your future
You're stronger than you know bruv
I'm telling you,
I'll be by your side, every step
If you want I'll go to Hell with you
And pull you out the other side,
Breathing, I know that's not you wanting to die bro,
That's just the pipe speaking,
To fight demons, I've seen it
I won't let it happen to you,
You know what I'm saying is true
If not for me I should prevail for them
Because they have everything to lose
And I'm just waiting for death
I say I'm strong and loyal
If I was I'd stay til the end
And hold my whole fan down
Til the day that I'm dead
I be the King that my Queen deserves
A brother to shove,
Sitting next to real life and with my Mum & my Dad
But I'm not so I'm sitting drunk mumbling raps
That place confession sipping liquor with a gun in my lap
See that's the you I know,
The you I know you wanna be
I know you at war with yourself
And all you want is peace
But brother please, just give me the piece,
It's not your time to go
I'm talking to Taylor now,
I'm not talking to Flowz
I just wish I woulda told you this sooner,
We can't change the past
But you coulda had a whole different future
And I just can't let go
Listening to the echoes of your voice
While I'm sitting here
Talking to your headstone.
Shoutouts to Eren Wooz A