Rum ba-bum ba-bum-bum
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Hey
Every mornin' when I wake up, I struggle to rise
I'm rubbin' my eyes, I'm so tired, what a surprise
I've got baggage under eyelids, red around my iris
Every night in bed, I'm never rested, tired of tryin'
'Cause I been dealin' with a lot on my plate
But smoke and mirrors make it seem like I be copin', no way
I gotta fake that I'm alright when the suns out, but it's all lies
But when I go bed, it's in my head and, man, it won't hide
Nah, it never leaves me alone
Demons circle me sleepin', and I need 'em to go
Dreamin' is sweet freedom, countin' sheep but never Z's much
So I sit up in my bed, and then I beg plead with Je-sus, like
"Lord, help me, nothing's seeming to work
I'm worried 'bout my family and when they're leavin' this earth
I'm worried 'bout breakin' hearts I wasn't meanin' to hurt
And I'm sorry for causin' people pain they didn't deserve", I say
Now I lay me down to sleep
My mind kicks off, beneath the sheets
All the fears that I withhold
Come alive, won't let me be
Now I lay in bed to rest
It all turns wild, inside my head
It all comes up when I lie down
Oh, Lord, no wonder I'm a night owl (yeah)
I say, no wonder I'm a night owl
No wonder always got the music pumpin' when the lights out
I'm groggy in the mornin', in the night, I come alive now
Mornin' people freak me out, even my alarm sounds
At 5:30, man, that shit's quite early
And the cycle repeats and my brain cells hurtin'
Should've listened myself, Smart Johnie at like 10 p.m.
But in the blink of an eye, 12 came and went
Now it's a new day and the same again
My brain's bent, olfactory, it saved the scent
Of roasted beans, and that means it'll make amends
A large cap', then I'm back with the sane again
They say, "I don't know how you do, J, where'd you get the energy?"
Truth is, I dunno, but never tell 'em 'bout the enemy
The reason I be burnin' candles, writin' is my therapy
Inside of me, anxiety is tryna sell a lie to me, nah
Now I lay me down to sleep
My mind kicks off, beneath the sheets
All the fears that I withhold
Come alive, won't let me be
Now I lay in bed to rest
It all turns wild, inside my head
It all comes up when I lie down
Oh, Lord, no wonder I'm a night owl
We the ones come alive in the nighttime
Spread our wings, and we fly till the sunshine, oh
Everything's fine in the daylight
But in the middle of the night, we ain't alright, no
We don't wanna feel down, so we up tonight
We know we shouldn't leave it left, but we right tonight
I ain't got enough energy to fight tonight
So when it hits midnight, I be takin' flight
Say, I go fly
Up so high
But no one knows
Just where I fly
I leave the ground
All behind
So I can fly in away in the moonlight
And I will deal with my bullshit when moods right, like
In the moments 'fore I'm fallin' asleep
My deep thoughts crawl forward through the floor with a creak
They keep formin' and hauntin', they talkin' to me
I toss, turn, these the ones that I usually keep
Away from myself or anyone else
My hand tremblin', tears fallin', I lay by myself
Top of the page reads "Life" with a capital L
My eyes close, I guess ventin' has helped