It was early in the fall
And for no reason at all
I went to see the Social Worker
No big thing I swear
I was bored and she was there
I thought I don't care,
I'll see the Social Worker
And she was all like: "Why you here?"
And I was all I don't know
She said: "You wanna talk a while?"
And I said I guess so
Usually don't remember
But the 18th of September
Was the first time
With the Social Worker
I went 'cuz I was feeling-
Well, no, feeling's not the right word
I went 'cuz I was crying-
Well, not crying more like choking
More like shaking, trapped, exploding
And not knowing what was going on
So I went to see the social worker
It was the first time it happened at school
It happened during Career Development class
I raised my hand and asked for a hall pass
I was kind of embarrassed about it
I didn't want anybody to see
What was happening to me
What was happening to me
What's happening to me?
I don't know, so I go and
See the social worker
She asks:
"Has this ever happened before?"
And I say
Maybe
Once
Maybe
More
It's just that
Sometimes I think about something
That I can't stop thinking about
And it starts to make me, well, not make me-
It starts to pull me, and sorta take me
I start to care too much I think, it's like
I care so much it scares me, frightens me
My head starts hurting, my chest it tightens
I try to stop thinking about, thinking about
But I can't stop thinking about, thinking about
And I feel scared and I feel small
And way too big, no air at all
And reaching out, locked up, inside
And looking for a place a hide
And pressure point and scream and hush
And tense and chill and buzz and rush
And bad and help and I can't see
Maybe you could help?
Maybe you could help me?
And then she's all
Breathe
Smile
And I'm better
For a while
I mean, it's just like, whatever
It was a one shot deal I never
Really go to the Social Worker
Like, maybe if I see her I'll say Hey
And she's all: "Have a good day"
And if the morning's moving slow
Just to say Hi, I might go
And maybe talk for a bit
But that's it
I mean, I don't really go to the Social Worker
I don't really know the Social Worker
Yeah, I don't know the Social Worker