Was I acting so different
Or was it just the change you need?
Never mind the past few years and how I've been
It's only the friends I care about,
And I care about what they think
You know nothing of who I am,
And you mean nothing to me
I'll just sit inside these four walls
Pull myself apart, and hope the pieces fit the same
I'm so used to calling this place my home
I guess it was selfish for me to think that way
I'll just smile and close off
Like these wounds I have buried
Keep myself at arms length
Cause you all sound the same
If you shut up, heard me cry out for helping
Maybe you'd keep assumptions to yourself,
And leave me to feel my own pain
This is the worst birthday that I'll ever have
I've never felt so unsafe in any space I've ever had
All of my friends have decided to
Look away and turn their back
I'm outside and alone,
Just another night with my whole life packed
I don't have the answers,
All I can tell is how I've been feeling
I've been tired of whispers,
I just want the waves to take me in
I don't have the answers,
All I can tell is how I've been feeling
I've been tired of whispers,
I just want the waves to take me in
This is the worst birthday that I'll ever have
I've never felt so unsafe in any space I've ever had
All of my friends have decided to
Look away and turn their back
I'm outside and alone,
Just another night with my whole life packed