Sometimes I wake up so confused it's hard to breath
And often I had to question why it is you had to leave
And other times I'm so angry that I don't know what is wrong
And mostly I have this feeling that in this place I don't belong
Then I sit back and think of all the good that's come to me
And that nothing in this life worth ever comes to us easy
And maybe in this walk we have to lose that we can love
And maybe when it's warm outside you're smiling from up above
Regardless, I have to question even though it's not my place
And sometimes I'm so damn tired I don't think I can keep this pace
But Still I lift my family above the dirt and the grime
And often I feel so cheated cause I think you chose your time
But to deal with these things that's what really makes a man
Elements out of your control to blindly trust there is a plan
No matter win or lose have no regrets and gain some strength
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger and for that I give my thanks
So many things I find it hard to keep track
So many feelings I find it hard to react
So many endings I don't know where to start
I hope in the end somehow I still did my part
So many things I find it hard to keep track
So many feelings I find it hard to react
So many endings I don't know where to start
I hope in the end somehow I still have the heart
Now I may not have a full deck but I know the cards I'm dealt
And these words can't describe the thoughts and feelings that I felt
When you turned you back on me and walked right on out that door
But it helped me to become stronger than I ever was before
Sitting patiently awaiting your voice by the phone
By the silence told me that down this road I walk alone
Yea I got my friends and you know to me they family
They accept me for who I am
And they love me for being me
There's two halves of this whole and thats something you didn't know
The one side is in control and the other I'll never show
I know this makes me seems to be emotionally unattached
But all if forgotten by morning with another drink right down that hatch
These events have made the man that's standing here today
Awaiting for that silver lining to shine on through these clouds of gray
Here I am, jokes aside sharing a heart felt remark
Standing proudly facing the latest journey I'm about to embark
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