I really wish I was cold
I wish I said what I wanted when I want, but I don't
I wish that I was a bitch
But, I've been in school for phycology since I was a kid
I'm used to pleasing everybody else
Nobody's hurting if I hurt myself
Oh I wish it wasn't easy
When I say I'm happy they believe me
I'm just dancing around all of the things I want to say
I should just say them but I don't wanna today
Cuz I won't know what to do
When I'm making you cry
But if I'm being honest
I'm really bad at being honest
I know I have to say it
But I know I won't unless I'm wasted
I would rather fantasize about the end of my life
Instead of building up the courage just to tell you goodbye
If I'm being honest
I have to tell you I don't want this
I'm really good at being
Anything you want me to be
I can switch it up if you don't like what you see
Oh I wish I wasn't like this
But I want you to know I'm really trying
But I'm still dancing around all of the things I want to say
I should just say them but I don't wanna today
Cuz I won't know what to do
When I'm making you cry
But if I'm being honest
I'm really bad at being honest
I know I have to say it
But I know I won't unless I'm wasted
I would rather fantasize about the end of my life
Instead of building up the courage just to tell you goodbye
If I'm being honest
I have to tell you I don't want this
I'm really good at being
Anything you want me to be
(I can't focus)
I'm just what I want you to see
(I don't want this)
Anything you want me to be
(I can't focus)
I'm just what I want you to see
(I don't want this)