I struggle with this thing inside of me All these fears they overpower me A battle I fight each and everyday Your words mean nothing you don't have shit to say Don't have a fucking thing to say Hate, fear, pain, are the things I feel So take the knife so I can feel something real Hate, fear, pain, are the things I feel So take the knife so I can feel something real Knock me down, pick me up again Feels like I'm trapped in insanity As it pulls me down, I pull away Everything stays the same Until you've lived a day, you'll never know the pain The only comfort from the falling rain All these things I feel are real I'm only human I don't know if I can fucking deal Don't know if I can fucking deal Knock me down, pick me up again Feels like I'm trapped in insanity As it pulls me down, I pull away Everything stays the same Hope turns to hate, there's nothing left to say As I close my eyes, darkness is where I lay Tension building in my veins All the words flowing through my brain Rage, I contain, madness takes control All my life it takes a toll Don't tell me what's real, I know how feel Put my throat to steel, end the infection Don't tell me what's real, I know how I feel Put my throat to steel, it has become surreal Knock me down, pick me up again Feels like I'm trapped in insanity As it pulls me down, I pull away Everything stays the same Hope turns to hate, there's nothing left say As I close my eyes, darkness is where I lay