Lying here bleeding out alone
Dying in someone else's home
They say that years go by and time makes
Everything better
They ask "do you think you have a plan?"
Ready to strap up both my hands
Thinking if they lock me away
They won't find a letter
These pills were meant to make me numb
And blur the days that I've come from
I've suffered enough for a thousand lifetimes
I wish they could know the fire in my mind
Saying the flames might die down in me someday, someday
Watching the past go wrong on repeat
Setting myself up for this defeat
If I'm gonna lose it might as well be my way, my way
Trying to keep from crashing down
I want to burn it to the ground
I've already lost the things inside that once were worth saving
Collateral damage from the fall
The only thing stopping me at all
But empathy only goes so far to keep me from caving
These pills could never make me numb
And blur the days that I've come from
I've suffered enough for a thousand lifetimes
I wish they could know the fire in my mind
Saying the flames might die down in me someday, someday
Watching the past go wrong on repeat
Setting myself up for this defeat
If I'm gonna lose it might as well be my way, my way
I don't want to choke, I just want to go up in smoke
And cinder
Emptiness burns
And nobody learns that I'm
Surrounded by tinder
And there's never been a way out.
I've suffered enough for a thousand lifetimes
I wish they could know the fire in my mind
Saying the flames might die down in me someday, someday
Watching the past go wrong on repeat
Setting myself up for this defeat
If I'm gonna lose it might as well be my way, my way