It's so hard to be honest
Cause I lost my own truth
And I think I'm lying I feel I'm cheating
All those thoughts in my head
Still don't know where I stand
It's been a long time since I have seen clearly
Caught up in the middle of my own mess
Trying to make sense is useless
Happy or depressed I can't seem to
Make any kind of difference
I can't leave but I can't stay
Stuck in this swirl of mixed up feelings
So sure of nothing, scared to end this
I clench my teeth, bite my cheeks
You call my name
What the hell is going on?
You're in my head
Maybe that's just not enough
What would it take for you to give it all away?
There are things I can't ignore
You're giving me the world
I know It's not deserved
And I don't seem to break the distance I created
And when you get closer
My mind's a million miles away
Cause it's not your face I'm looking for in the crowd
Caught up in the middle of my own mess
Trying to make sense is useless
Happy or depressed I can't seem to
Make any kind of difference
All my colors they turn grey
I can't escape my sins
But you're the one bringing me light
I find comfort in the warmth of your skin
You call my name
What the hell is going on?
You're in my head
Maybe that's just not enough
What would it take for you to give it all away?
There are things I can't ignore
Every night and every day
I ask myself is she the one
Or do I have to get away
I can't fix it in my head
My mind is going back and forth
I can't escape this loop that never ends
And I can't leave, these moments we spend
They're washing away all the harmful thoughts that I have inside
But I can't stay, I need these moments
But I can't give you back all the love that you can provide
My heart and my brain are messing around
I can't solve this problem it's driving crazy
You're everything that I need but you're breaking me
At the same time I'm turning insane
You call my name
What the hell is going on?
You're in my head
Maybe that's just not enough
What would it take for you to give it all away?
There are things I can't ignore