Lying awake, on my own again I can finally steal the entire bed And yet I curl into this ball of flesh Protected from the chill that starts Inside my bones and spreads to parts Of me that I'd forgotten could feel The pain of cold But they'll numb themselves soon enough or so I'm told Alone Desperate for somebody, for you to hold But all I'll be is holding out until the only skin I need's my own To feel at home again Alone again Window is open and the sky is dim You know me and my affair with 4 a.m. But all I wish for now is sleep's sweet release Music of the rain keeps me awake Wishing it were running down my face Instead of rivulets of the saltier kind Oh, how it stings But like learning, healing's only something time can bring Alone Desperate for somebody, for you to hold But all I'll be is holding out until the only skin I need's my own To feel at home again Alone again The walls where our shadows used to play The echoes of promises we made The sheets where our bodies used to lay Tangled and hard to discern Like telling apart happiness and familiar comfort Alone Desperate -- for you to hold But all I'll be is holding out until the only skin I need's my own To feel at home again Alone again Whole again Alone again