I try to keep my face up
But old friends wanna say stuff
Ironic how I stay up
Cause I don't wanna wake up
I feel my brain start to melt
I see I'm losing myself
I complain bout mental health
(But I don't seek any help)
And it's hard for me to focus
And I don't know why I wrote this
To be honest, everything I write is
Every other thing that should be spoken
They ain't aware that I feel like this
They ain't aware that I'm tryna to fight this
I don't talk cause I'm going through a crisis
(Think I know the reason why I wanna write this)
I don't think I'm happy
Waking up's a bad dream
Crowded by the bad things
Crowded by the-
Aye
And I don't know what's happening
Seeing all of them laughing
Feel some type of stabbing
I don't know what-
Aye
And I don't know what is happening
You don't understand
Wanna close curtains
People talk about me like they want me hurting
Everybody try to paint me as an awful person
Trying to not give a fuck cause nobody's perfect
And I know who I am
You don't gotta detest me
Try to love other people but they don't seem friendly
And the whole world loved me, now they turning against me
Homies that I thought I had started to be an enemy
Damn
So that's how it is?
Fighting around people about things I never did
Still making mistakes even tho i aint a kid
I just wanna make music for the fun and get lit
Oh shit
Oh shit
Here we go again
Here's another person tryna play pretend
It's another person telling me that I'm their friend
But I know they gonna fuck me over when we're at the end aye
And it's hard for me to focus
And I don't know why I wrote this
To be honest, everything I write is
Every other thing that should be spoken
They ain't aware that I feel like this
They ain't aware that I'm tryna to fight this
I don't talk cause I'm going through a crisis
(Think I know the reason why I wanna write this
I don't think I'm happy
Waking up's a bad dream
Crowded by the bad things
Crowded by the-
Aye
And I don't know what's happening
Seeing all of them laughing
Feel some type of stabbing
I don't know what-
Aye
And I don't know what is happening
I don't think I'm happy
Waking up's a bad dream
Crowded by the bad things
Crowded by the-
Aye
And I don't know what's happening
Seeing all of them laughing
Feel some type of stabbing
I don't know what-
Aye
And I don't know what is happening