Uh I never realized
I can't let you go
Filled up my brain with all these lies
Where's my antidote
Lit it up, used to fantasize
Happy episodes
Do you know what I keep inside
I did never show
Regret keeps feeding my demise
I can't end it though
All on my own
I'm getting high
I keep getting stoned
Put all my feeling to a side
Cause they made me sore
How did i get here
Looking back
Nothing adding up
Nothing adding up
Standing outside in the rain
Waiting, right time never came
Hear my heart skip on her name
Think i got ditched, all again
Slowly i picked everything
Put me back up
Not the same
Lot of these things never change
For the better or worse
I don't care
No
Idolizing the love
I can't find it enough
Lots of times I'm just numb
Idolizing the love
I can't find it enough
Lots of times I'm just numb
Lots of time I'm just numb
Uh I never realized
I can't let you go
Filled up my brain with all these lies
Where's my antidote
Lit it up, used to fantasize
Happy episodes
Do you know what I keep inside
I did never show
Regret keeps feeding my demise
I can't end it though
All on my own
I'm getting high
I keep getting stoned
Put all my feeling to a side
Cause they made me sore
How did i get here
Looking back
Nothing adding up
Nothing adding up