I don't understand the deepest side of me
I got too many days to think in quarantine
Living on my own with no one to relate
I'm feeling overwhelmed by the hidden part of me
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I don't understand why I play hide and seek
Hiding all the bottles that I finish in a week
I'm living in a hole with no light that can heat
My face begins to show the first signs of defeat
And I fall down
I fall down
I need to say the truth
I need to find a way to get away
I just need to slow down
But I'm not gonna lie
Love can't see me
I'm only happy when I'm drunk
Only happy when I'm drunk
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I don't want the weight and the stress inside my head
So I try to keep the fog until I go to bed
I feel like Dorian Gray, the painting has no flaws
I try to fix the surface, the inside is long gone
And I fall down
I fall down
I need to say the truth
I need to find a way to get away
I just need to slow down
But I'm not gonna lie
Love can't see me
I'm only happy when I'm drunk
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In this grieving time
I'm washing all away
I'm washing all the pain
Sorrow can grow
I will drown my pain away
I will drown it all away
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I need to say the truth
I need to find a way to get away
Just need to slow down
But I'm not gonna lie
I need to say the truth
I need to find a way to get away
I just need to slow down
But I'm not gonna lie
Love can't see me
I'm only happy when I'm drunk