Funny how nothing much changed when i thought
That i got it like that
Everybody thinks i'm doing great but the fact of the matter is
I don't really feel like that
I got the degree, the keys, the job security
Family so proud of me, but I don't believe in me
I love all my people, but damn they just don't know
I'm not ready to share it so I play it humble
I'm so proud of you, stay widdit, damn, how i put on a good show
Paralyzed by my thoughts, I should really let them go
This ain't good for my mental, it's simple
Man this got me fucked up
How did it get to be like this
I worked so hard just to get me here
Damn i feel so alone
Only feel good when i reminisce
Wanna take a trip to the times i miss
It's feelin so different
I just wanna leave, yea
I'm sick of this distance
From the old me, no
I'm done reminiscing
It's time i break free
I know what I need
Don't need no more wishin
I'm all that I need
Fast forward to present day, i'm doing much better
I understand now, it's about perspective
And that the learning never ends
Healing and pain are both my friends
It's become clear and more evident
What others think is irrelevant
It's not what they teach
It's what i believe
It's not what they want
It's bout what I need
No matter what happens
I stay true to me
I'ma make sure I succeed
On the terms defined by me
So I lift myself up
Found my peace once i looked within
Worked so hard just to get me here
Now i'm here standing up
My success I'ma manifest
I'm moving on with no regrets
It's feeling so different
I finally see
That all of this distance
Just led back to me
Don't need no convincing
It's all up to me
I know what i need
It's just the beginning