What do I have to do for no worries
Why we gotta grow up so early
We learn slowly
Growth and maturing, they don't hurry
No sir, we can't quit the kid shit cold turkey
And there's no need
Cuz molting is blurry as snow flurries
Alone as it gathers on the ground that I trod through
So glad that I found and I got you
Know me like nobody else ever could or should
Something tells me not many would've looked
Any farther than my failures and flaws
Sometimes I wonder if I had 'em on a banner for all
To see, and they all saw, what would happen tomorrow
Would the friends that I call my family
Be there for me still, or vanish, all gone
I don't know, perhaps I been wrong
Because they tell me what I am is enough
But god damn it, it sucks
Cuz you gotta understand that I want
To offer everything I can't and I'm sorry
I am a work in progress (Yeah)
And it's a long process
But if you're goin', then you can't stop yet (Nah)
You can't stop yet
So until then I withdraw like an ATM
To escape the painfulness of interaction
It's a fact I'm not so sure what saneness is
I should build a bivouac before it starts to rain again
If it lasts it's a blessing cuz everything else is always cavin' in
I miss the rays of sun and faces full of radiance
But most of all I missy lady friend
Try'na pay attention to my aims and make progressions
On the highest stakes ambitions of my life
I hate the pressure
Stavin' off depression with the apex of my effort
It wants to take the reins from me
And maybe I should let it
I'm so tired of this lifestyle
My eyes don't go wider at this hour
Turn the lights down, please
This isn't a wry smile, I'm frowning
It's just the expression I use to quiet down people
Who like to inquire what I'm upset about
When I'm just spacin' out
So don't wonder why my head is down
See, I appreciate you care enough to ask
But usually I'm in no mood to speak
Fair enough? Is that alright with you
Cuz I'm alright, too, so don't worry bout me none
God knows both of us have got a thousand other
Objects of concern to occupy our headspace
It's best to just take care of yourself, mate
I used to use all of my energy on empathy
Thinkin' helpin' others was the way to make a better me
And I still do, but now I know the full truth
It kills you to only focus on makin' sure other people pull through
Gotta grab your own oxygen mask
Before you can get to all the others and assist them
With your seatbelt fastened
Pull down on the mask to extend the tubing
Normal breathing will start the flow of oxygen
And remember to always put your own mask on first
Before helping others
I look not at the earth pocked by foot marks
We made in this place- a good spot
Till we shirked our commitments
(Nah) They weren't written in bedrock
Back on that unpredictable bus- what's the next spot
Thought I had it figured, but I guess not
It's as though it was but just an episode
And you were just a guest spot
TED talks surely more than we have in recent months
Press pause
"This is reality Greg"
Get off your phone
I saw my average screen time
And holy shit, I screamed like
Macaulay Culkin and launched the screen I've been holding
To type this digital dirge of lost love
Maybe I'm stuck; I greatly wanna pop off
But naw dawg
My thoughts are subconsciously clampin' onto
All that gone stuff
It musta got lodged in me and I'm clogged up
'Not today,' I say every day when I'm wakin' up
From my slumber
Those thoughts got too small for the art
I want to start to conjure
But once I conquer what I'm movin' on from
(Once I conquer, once I conquer what I'm movin' on from)
Once I conquer what I'm movin' on from
My inspiration hits me like I never fuckin' saw none