Oh no
Yeah
OK
Peace sign raised high to my school life
I can barely pay mind to my true life
Rules ain't loose, they tight as my shoes tied
Can't scoot wide of 'em, try as a fool might
I bend 'em, but then just end up bendin' backwards
And then my back hurts, and bad words
Come tumblin' out my foul mouth, wish I could bow out
Someone kick me a roundhouse ticket to down for the count
I'm down and out, and I don't wanna stick around
For the round I'm about to fight
Heard the same bells several thousand times
That's the sound of time
Which is out of my control. How could I withhold lies
I'm not even allowed to lie my soul down for a rest
Don't matter how many hours I've slept
It never has the power to cleanse me
Tensin' my body, neck is quite knotty
Bet that I'm not breathin' properly
And you're probably correct, guess ya got me
I don't wanna have to pretend that I'm not me
I don't wanna have to text an apology
After I left your last messages all on read
That defeats the purpose
The constant connection is driving me kinda insane
Woulda said that I'm sorry
If we ever actually interacted in person
Instead of just on these threads when we on-screen
Every passing second will never ever return again
So why would you waste a single one
On the small talk we make on digital
Makes no sense to me, but then again it seems
I'm never really fittin' in with sheep
And that's fine with me
Is it alright with you
If I usually decide to choose
Solitude over devotin' my time to doin'
What in my view's kinda stupid
No offense
None taken here
If you think I'm weird
And feel inclined to start stayin' clear
You won't hear any complaints
I will be in my creative sphere if you need me
Yeah
I will be in my creative sphere if you need me
So don't worry if you don't see me
Nah
You know where to find me if you need me
And don't hesitate to if need be
It's been a minute since the beginning
Then again, it can depend on if it exists in the first place
What if I got in your face
Would you respond or turn away
Wait, this ain't the me that I'm used to
You would agree it's unusual, wouldn't you
Hold up
Why should I remain in the same lane, playing blame games
When I wanna make gains and create change
Head full of questions, neck full of stress
Every damn inch of my body's invested
Coulda, woulda, shoulda picked a million different roads
But I chose this one, so I own its uphills as much as its mole hills
One of these days I'm gonna pay off all my dues
Layin' off the news tryna stay up on my mood
Takin' a brush and choosing to paint another view
Pain comes and it goes, often with both cons and pros
All that I know is you're not in control of a lot of it
But you can opt to get positive out of the holes
In other words, all that's gold don't glitter
Most of it's hidden where you don't consider
Lookin' life in the face, I am
Lemme face my damn time-wastin' tendencies
Now, not a single minute later
It isn't debatable, I'm really finished waitin'
But even as I say that, I hear the playback
Playing in the back of my head, and it say that
I wake up wanting to go back to sleep
I was up late tallying the blackened sheep
Tryna get an estimate of how many would rather
Be a bit different than following the mainstream
Doin' exactly the same thing
Wonderin', 'Is that me or maybe any one of the other ones'
It's not easy straying from the lamb herd
Even deviation has a standard
But answer me this
Why is it so damn scary to mix up or vary the shit
That makes us divisible as individuals
Apart from the visible physical
Don't get me wrong, I'm all about the One Love philosophy
But each one of us got some unique-ass characteristics
We tend to keep hidden for fear that we never could fit in with them
It's terribly sad we'd apparently
Rather be plastic than cherish our differences, when
I dare to profess they're the very essence
Of what makes us so interesting
Said it's terribly sad we'd apparently
Rather be plastic than cherish our differences, when
I dare to profess they're the very essence
Of what makes us so interesting