I like to put in effort when I write
People need to see the growth
I wanna give you the best so that
It's only up from here onward
Powerless to change the past
Face the facts, that's how it is
Mistakes, regrets- ain't proud of them
How I can make amends the daily question
Nighttime fade to black
And then awake to the same obsession, in a vague depression
Now and then pain'll pass
I make it last to retain painful lessons
I'm battling the hate for self with ways to help my fellow man
By that I mean the whole planet
Please conceive man as an alchemist, for this rap at least
Rapidly realizin I have to shift this animus to anima
Without the masks of aliases
All animates must adapt again and again and again
But balancin- I been bad at this as calculus since I was a kid
Whatever bout I'm in, I'm adamant about it
And in and out of it again, again, again, again
Steady as a better friend (would be)
Wish I never said depend (on me)
Til the bitter end I keep
Wonderin when the innocence left
And where the hell it went
I got Eddie Vedder in my head
Wanna go Alexander Supertramp
But I won't do the fam like that
I'm kept in check knowing deeply
This life is bigger than your own experience
Don't believe me yet? Hope sincerely you
Don't experiment; no one need to go out that way
Easy for me to say, though
My route been about half paved
I know everybody pay the toll, though
Even the meter maid, yeah
Powerless to cease the change
I know it'll never be the same
So I say auf Wiedersehen
And grieve all the same as I
Seize the day
Carpe Diem
The life
It's so crazy, Robin
Wow
Wow
Took a while for me to see
The truth is hidden deep
The pain I had to grieve
It was me that I couldn't be
Had to fake, it got hard to breathe
Swear the stars felt far to reach
Now I'm up and the people say
Yet they don't know what I feel
Was so broke, used to dress to kill
It was confidence that I lacked
See, the problem stems right back
Send my stems to Rob and now we on a track
Some shit that I would manifest
Mother told me do your best
See my dreams and I press the bench
There's some weight on my shoulders
Cuz I'm getting wiser before I get older
Mistakes that I made I would regret
But now that I know I've been chosen
I'm spendin time with the fam, and it's just for a moment
I needed my closure
Before you know it it's over
Problems I had with my dad
Cuz he still be drinkin with friends of our fam
And I just be smokin
I'm lost, out of focus
Still, I know where I'm goin
I just needed a moment
Yeah
I needed my closure
But it's never over
I gotta keep goin
I'm only gettin older
I'm happy I know ya
But me, I'm a loner
I gotta keep goin
Everything'll be kosher