Look back cry and I think of tears
Hope I haven't wasted all these years
Maybe I'm a waste of time
But tell me I'm not wasting time
My darling Nicki
Damn I love you
Don't know what that means now
But I love you
I know that I was nowhere around
Holding you down doing shows knowing hoes was around
Shoulda had you til it was no one around, til I turned old, had a stroke, thirty
Toes in the ground.
Through the fake smiles, you could've chosen to bounce
Before the wills and the lawsuits and the frozen accounts
Putting water under a bridge till it froze and we drown
Shouldn't have paid for all these birthdays, the clothes and the clown's
And balloons, and as June prom time, girl's clothes in the gowns
And if... I dont know if I should go that far.
But to see it and then to wake up and not is such a heart break
I don't know if I should have started but...
Darling Nicki
Damn I love you
Don't know what that means now
But I love you
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I was calling out
Hopefully heard the sound
Would've been writing, but we were too busy tossing words around
I guess its all connected
At the end of the day I can't be mad cause more than anything its self reflected
I shine a light into the foreground
I hope you see the floor now
Not to mention give it a couple of months and I'll be tour bound
She'll be waiting for me like she always was
But for now think about who number you dialed when you got out that courthouse
I wish that this was any consolation
For every sentence missed and lost and missing conversation
I think of you, You think of me
I think we've grown impatient
Should've used the appointed time I feel like we've been wasting
But before my aid becomes my way man
I need two or three mill
If not I'mma flip probably kill myself
We on the road to not see it go down that route
At the end of the day
What's the point in living life
If all your time is for you