And this bout the 4th time
This year
I done thought about ending it all
But I'm scared to push forth on the trigger
In New York, with my niggas
We don't milly rock
But I feel like the source of my dance
It's Extorted by liquor
With hopes i could cover these pigeon toes
My dopamine levels is dipping low
The closeness of dreams in proximity
Never outweighs all the feelings i didn't show
My demons been throwing they C's up
I'm stuck in the blues my nigga
My peace been disrupted for weeks
I don't know what to do my nigga
Feel like I'm letting down half of my team
I feel like I'm Kuzma nigga
Sometimes I feel useless nigga
Ausar has been telling me lately
I need to just put all my fear aside
Is it really "essential"
I wear my whole faith on my sleeve
Just to show i got "Fear Of God"
If you seen my credentials
Then you know that a nigga
Like me not for teary eyes
But this GROWNISH
I fight on the daily
Is Chloe and Hailey
And Yara Sharidi vibes
I'm like Kenya Barris
Knowing the fact
That my pen won't fail us
I'm sign on the dot
So they pay me cash
And pray they don't hate me
Like Stacy dash
Every player I played with
Said paper's amazing
For building Mache
To display my craft
I'm Picasso but locked on the style
An apostle who's passion
Could topple the masters
A God Free to the walk cross the Nile
But i struggle with benching these demons
Above me
I know for a fact I'm not swole enough
You could tell by my ugly
And how much she love me
My shawty deserves more to hold her up
Origami look lovely
But baby don't trust me enough
To think bitches won't fold me up
Moral compass is losing direction
Sorting conflicts
With ruthless aggression
More despondent when using affection
And my honesty
Worst than these lies
It's like comedy service in session
Every time i say we gon be fine
She convinced that our worst days
Need some first aid
But she scared to apply it
She more so prepared for dividing
And this bout the 4th time
This year
I done thought about ending it all
But I'm scared to push forth on the trigger
In New York, with my niggas
We don't milly rock
But i feel like the source of my dance
It's Extorted by liquor
With hopes i could cover these pigeons toes
My dopamine levels is dipping low
The closeness of dreams in proximity
Never outweighs all the feelings i didn't show
My demons been throwing they C's up
I'm stuck in the blues my nigga
My peace been disrupted for weeks
I don't know what to do my nigga
Feel like I'm letting down half of my team
I feel like I'm Kuzma nigga
Sometimes I feel useless nigga
D Book,
The way this sun shine
When they finally see nigga glory
Skipping my story
To see the result
Is a shame
Cause i tried to share it
They gon say I'm like Cole
But imposter syndrome
Make me feel like Tobias Harris
They gon say I birth Gold
But that often brings lows
When living like Midas Parents
I don't feel moved no more
Curb my enthusiasm
When i fake laugh
I don't feel amused no more
I work for the views im after
But that Drake shit
Ain't what I pursue no more
Tryna put Mizz in Seattle
Asia been down for the A
Nile want a fenced in Castle
Things feel different
When you gotta couple niggas on yo backside
Praying that this ship don't cap size
Playing with this shit will attract flies
Playing like the clips
Will just turn you Doc River
Every nigga is convinced you the bad guy
Been there
Done that
Bad Vibes
Still got demons from past lives
Feeling like everything
Changes the minute you seize every hour
Inside the clock
I ain't been settling lately
To win it
I need to be netting on every shot
Depression meddling greatly
To end it
Believe me I'm never gon let it stop
Where i go
And this bout the 4th time
This year
I done thought about ending it all
But I'm scared to push forth on the