It's been awhile since I could Hold my head up high It's been awhile since I first saw you It's been awhile since I could stand On my own two feet again It's been awhile since I could call you And everything I can remember Is fucked up as it all may seem The consequences that I've rendered Have stretched myself beyond my means It's been awhile since I could say That I wasn't addicted and It's been awhile since I could say I love myself as well as It's been awhile since I've gone And fucked things up just like I always do It's been awhile but all that shit Seems to disappear when I'm with you And everything I can remember Is fucked up as it all may seem The consequences that I've rendered Have gone and fucked things up again, yeah Why must I feel this way Just make this go away Just one more peaceful day It's been awhile since I could Look at myself stray It's been awhile since I said I'm sorry It's been awhile since I've seen the way That candles light your face It's been awhile but I can still remember Just the way you taste And everything I can remember As fucked up as it all may seem to be I know it's me I cannot blame this on my father He did the best he could for me, yeah It's been awhile since I could Hold my head up high It's been awhile since I said I'm sorry