Man I always gotta feel like I'm a fucking joke
Always sitting at my laptop writing lyrics drinking coke
I'm never out there doing shit I always sit at home
Today I spend away music investments 'til I'm broke
I cannot pick myself up on the days that I'm alone
Looking out for all my friends when I'm extremely low
Hide the pain inside my head when demons follow home
Looking up to all these legends scared that I won't grow
If I don't grow then I don't know what imma do
I put my pain into my passion and my fingers turning blue
Need some faith to really chase the things I just wanna do
Maybe the fallout of my life will teach me whats certainly true
There's radiation in my skin and to be honest doesn't burn
Wish my dad was proud of me I wish that he would truly learn
Who I am
He's so distracted with who he wants me to be
Always constantly reminded I'm attached to a receipt
Man I always gotta feel like I'm a fucking joke
Always sitting at my laptop writing lyrics drinking coke
I'm never out there doing shit I always sit at home
Today I spend away music investments 'til I'm broke
I cannot pick myself up on the days that I'm alone
Looking out for all my friends when I'm extremely low
Hide the pain inside my head when demons follow home
Looking up to all these legends scared that I won't grow
If I don't grow then I don't know what imma do
I put my pain into my passion and my fingers turning blue
Need some faith to really chase the things I just wanna do
Maybe the fallout of my life will teach me whats certainly true