I went to bed awake and I woke up asleep
I been trying to get better it gets harder every week
As the minutes passing by
I wonder if I did alright
Did I impact someone's life
Did I give them a good time
No
I don't wanna be that guy
Too much pressure for someone's life
I don't wanna go to bed forever
Forever
Don't you tell me never
I was wide awake now I'm dead asleep
I'm sorry
I know you never saw me
I got the liquor out
Force the paranoia down
And its so hard to live
I got no love to give
Emotions feeling null
My brain not in my skull
I'm a shell of who I was
I push everyone away
I'm ashamed of who I am
But I guess he's here to stay
This ain't me
This is him
Can you save me say my name
PTSD got my nervous over any small change
Cause
I went to bed awake and I woke up asleep
I been trying to get better it gets harder every week
As the minutes passing by
I wonder if I did alright
Did I impact someone's life
Did I give them a good time