Everybody being driven away from me
I guess I ruin everything that I touch and that I see
Tell me is it really me
It's getting harder to breath
It's getting harder to be
Am I a goner
Am I a monster
Am I the monster
I don't wanna be this way but
Fuck
I don't think I have a choice
I don't wanna make you hide
Every single time that you hear my voice
But I cannot help that it is my nature
I don't try to be like this
You're making me feel like
I should be trapped deep beneath the abyss
Saying all this as my sanity slips
Salvation is hopeless
You would think that I would know this
After trial and error
Trial and error
Trial and error
Trial and error
No matter how much I breath I never take in air
No matter how much I try you never seem to care
My intentions have been nothing but good from the start
But I do one bad thing and your mood falls apart
I'm getting real sick of the pity that I have to fake
I just feel like a mistake
I just don't get how I feel so dead while I'm awake
Everybody being driven away from me
I guess I ruin everything that I touch and that I see
Tell me is it really me
It's getting harder to breath
It's getting harder to be
Am I a goner
Am I a monster
Am I the monster
I don't wanna be this way but
Fuck
I don't think I have a choice
I don't wanna make you hide
Every single time that you hear my voice
But I cannot help that it is my nature
I don't try to be like this
You're making me feel like
I should be trapped deep beneath the abyss
Saying all this as my sanity slips
No matter how much I breath I never take in air
No matter how much I try you never seem to care
Maybe I'm not what you make me feel like
Maybe you were wrong
Maybe I'm right
Maybe I'm right
And I'll die laughing because this is such a fucking joke
Walking on these shells from the eggs you broke
Maybe I am still the monster
But I'm the one that you made me
You fucking played me
You betrayed me
Leave my innocence in the dirt
There's no way to reverse