Sick of being sorry, sick of walking away
Been loyal to myself but became a slave
A radioactive earthquake
Mind fucked for fuck's sake
Plastic tissues, a puppet made of clay
Sick of being afraid, sick of being so brave
I've been convincin' myself it's two-way
A hidden unlovable criminal
A not reversible antidote
A T-bone steak?
A snowflake?
I never asked to be born
Look up in the sky tryna hold back the tears outta my eyes
Wishin' die or ride but I need more than that, not losing fight
Colliding into black like a duck to water crime with an alibi
Write and overwrite never satisfied, black and blue hearin' gunfight
Home's too far away
(Never satisfied, never satisfied, never satisfied)
Home's too far away
(Never satisfied, never satisfied, never satisfied)
Sick of bein' looked down and respondin' so fake
Are horses born to be ridden? Y'all human snake
A cornea gallbladder milkshake
Shinin' diamonds on your shortcake
Mind fucked for fuck's sake
Sickenin' feelin' that shockwave
It's okay that I don't, I don't wanna feel okay
Spice it up this time, I'm pickin' up my pace
I'm nothing like the person my family want me to portray
Look at me now I'm fearless cuz I've been afraid
If I could see the future, would I still want to be here?
Does fire have a smell itself?
What's the taste of blood?
Nobody else?
I'm not happy, I don't really want to be
Fair and square, what do I care?
Got way more bandaids in my pocket
I'm not happy, I don't really want to be
I don't really want to be
I don't really want to be
I don't really want to be
I don't really want to be
I don't really want to be
I don't really want to be
I never
Wishin' die or ride
Wishin' die or ride
Wishin' die or ride
Wishin' die or ride but I need more than that
Colliding into black like a duck to water crime with an alibi