I wrote as fast as I could, almost illegible
All interrupted thoughts and vague embellishments
I didn't want to show how much I didn't know
My nervous hand started sweating through the pages
And slid across everything written in lines above
And all the words I wrote started running together
(And all the ink began bleeding together)
Woke in cold sweat, power's out again
(And I was scared they'd hear my heart beating then)
I can't see past my mirror
So, every once in a while, it would happen again
There was a lesson we never had learned
That it was even more difficult keeping it in
I guess we had a habit of forming another extreme
Efforts that felt more sensed than seen
When you finally saw what it read,
Despite what I said, it's not how I meant it
My car wouldn't start
The glass had frozen
The past week, every day had been ten below
I guess I felt it coming
I knew that someday,
It'd never start again
(It would die here)
I guess it'd be best if we just found
A way to let ourselves disconnect from
Everything we've come to depend on
(I'm writing you for the last time)
Still it was better to be
Left a metaphor, a broken analogy
Deadline got the best of me
Stop. Ceiling shot collecting above
Door could not quite shut
All I witnessed was
The reflection of your hair
You were flying out that day
Just past first light
We didn't know what to say
And you were gone
An echo hushed beneath
Though breaks the dawn,
The nocturne followed me
And my inverted sleep
Still lasted for a week
Accumulated there
Several inches deep
Returning from reprieve
The place we used to be
Anticipating everyone you see
Will ask you the same thing
Morning came
It crested over the skyline
(Although we know better, I'll wait at home)
The next stop was mine
Still I lied
(I'll wait, I'll wait, I know, I know)
The train kept grinding along its flanges
Carried us along underground
Fewer fewer further down leaving
Silent slid the doors sealed again
Couldn't stop the morning air entering
I know, I will lie on