Lump inside my throat Puts pressure to my chest Keeps pushing and pushing And make feel the guilt Shortcuts taken again But I still can't fill you up I can't wait to get home Can't wait to be alone Got use to the bitter taste Got used to you etching me up I ignore the obvious I don't even care While I press my tongue While I grind my teeth I try not to lose it all Not to lose control You are a cure bringing cancer Dissolving me into your heaven Weird numbing power trip Hundred million butterflies Shape shifting stupid little joy High speed emotion on adrenaline Excitingly relaxing dream eater Dimension four window Ethereal gateway Time bender Room changer Ecstatic shock When I only saw the night You made me see the stars You absorbed me into your Blissful sea of tar I somehow feel like shit For using you again In the end I really do not care enough