I'd love to kill myself
If i were not so afraid of death
Sabotaged attempt
As i failed suicide today
Don't care as long as anything goes away
Dissipating from my memory
Tired of feeling so damn awake
Feels great
To have this life to fake
I'd love to kill myself
If i were not so afraid of death
Sabotaged attempt
As i failed suicide today
Don't care as long as anything goes away
Destroying most of my memories
Tired of feeling in debt to pain
Feels grey
I'd love to kill myself
If i were not so afraid of death
Sabotaged attempt
As i failed to kill myself
4. plastic bath
Fuck i forgot to wake up
Don't give a shit
Close your mouth
Go get fucked
I only care just to not
So guess what
I stopped
Don't try to wake up long enough to give a fuck
Mutter me something
I don't know
Mutter me nothing
For fuck sake
I better watch out 'cause i have a gun
And i don't even know if i even know it
What's the point when no one's watching
In this shit doesn't last very long anyway
I better watch out 'cause i have a gun
And i don't even know if it's even loaded
What's the point when no one's watching
In this shit doesn't last very long anyway
It came to me
Like a dream that seems real
Fooling me into human pieces
Everything shit
Covered in shit
I long for the will to repay
This fevered life
These futile dreams
Everything came to be
Like the dream unfulfilled
Seeing human needs as feces
Let me grab a machine
And make it real
Melt its plastic down
To bury shit deep
To rot it
Forgotten