At my age the funerals and weddings start I've lost my place The book of youth, I've read it cover to cover And I've had my share of lovers And I've had my scares and victories But the next in the series I've yet to crack the spine I need my own Jesus Christ But everybody is a Judas Iscariot The weight and burden boy well you're gonna carry it So help me God This cross I bear is bearing down The price I pay If no one's there to help me down off the crucifix I know you have your reasons for doing this But let me first make my case for forgiveness Because it feels like the rest of the world has passed me By My mind is numb I bite my tongue I kissed the son of God and gave up eternity Selfish and wasteful So punish me I'm lost and week The cost I bleed I'm scared to see what waits for me But I hope it's not tired of waiting The tongue of a serpent, the heart of an angel, the victim Of circumstance When blood turns to water, forgot how to love turned My back on my father Please forgive me