(Checked out of the hotel early) Checked out of the hotel early Driver picked me up, ain't said a word the whole journey Yeah And right now I'm thinking clearly But my memories of the last week are still blurry Another reminder of my old habits I'm on the other side but still I'm left with the damage And I knew what I was dealing with, didn't wanna confront it I used to wanna feel numb, now I just wanna feel something And I rarely ask for help But now I'm reaching for a hand Feels like I barely know myself And I'm just trying to understand Might be the closest that I've felt To having everything I'd planned So why do I feel so distant? I thought things would be different Yeah my self-esteem's sitting low but still I'm feeling confident Can barely stay at home, I'm taking flights across the continent And trips across the country cause my closest friends are not around Got me feeling different when somebody asks my hometown Never take a day off but I think I need to slow down Listeners round the world now but still ain't done a show, how Did I get here? Cause I never saw it coming Doing better but still I don't recognise who I'm becoming And I rarely ask for help But now I'm reaching for a hand Feels like I barely know myself And I'm just trying to understand Might be the closest that I've felt To having everything I'd planned So why do I feel so distant? I thought things would be different