I always take it home The endless feeling of all alone I always find it hard not to feel like the lowest card When we reach the heart That's when everything falls apart A tearing rush through the core It's always over right from the start I turn the lights down low Nothing heals and nothing glows I think about the apple trees I can't sleep, too many memories It's the worst And I feel it coming on and there's no other place to go My tired eyes roll white as no one comes and holds me tight It's the blackest space I know I tremble when it comes around You'd tremble too if you knew what I do It's the worst feeling (There's no escape) (Help, help me)