I'm the fucked up kid in school Dead in the eyes of the rules I got sent home for throwing up My friends think being sick is cool And my dad beat up my mom 'Cause she's an alcoholic But he's an alcoholic too Through the looking glass of abuse I wanna sleep next to you After school, before my mom calls To see when I'm coming home I can finally see where the tether ends Mortally coiled around nothingness Mortally coiled around nothingness Mortally coiled around nothingness I'm the fucked up kid in school Maybe I'll join the army No one will ever know me truly My rage has silenced a cry for help My mom's dealer put a gun to my head For a laugh, for his friends And in that moment I knew I could kill My mother's prison is herself