Search through the sky for a sign or a simple suggestion
I waited all night, but I was fast asleep when it knocked upon my door
It gets lonely here when it's just me and my questions
Jetsam in the Ether, pulsars pull not drawing anymore
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I remember it like yesterday
Thought that you were lovely, I just didn't know what to say
There's all these protocols that get in the way
We were on the edge of seventeen
All we knew to say were things we didn't mean
I still impressed you with my wit, it seemed
I learned so much from magazines and television
About how men relate through rules to tell them how
Oh, I saw the signals with precision
The moments when our habits faltered
Omens of desires unhaltered
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It wasn't long 'til we were sharing beds
With different dressings on the dreams appearing in our heads
I wanted a lover, you a brother instead
Either way, these things were hard to name
Me, always wondering, did we feel the same?
And after a while, all I could feel was shame
Stef said I shouldn't see you anymore
Clyde, they tried to call me on the phone to say
Some Love's Labout Lost, oh, but I'm never sure
There's nothing they could tell me ever
Made me really want to be alone
And I felt a funny face
Was a worthless waste, caught a hopeless case
For sweet boys on sweaty days
Don't know what we craved, it remains unspoken
The longing outlived the place
Our artistic taste, it outlived the clothes we wore
When I feel uncertain now
I remember how we carry the feeling
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Those were stories that we saved for dark
Lost the plot before they'd even start
Except once when we were drunk and then you kissed me hard
And so, I faded to a distant star
In the brightest company, but everything's so far
Thinking lifetimes pass us, gaseous, things just stay as they are
I tried to chalk it up to expectation
Or believe that what I wanted was just wrong
But now I better understand assimilation
I closed ranks among the ones who felt I
Only quite belonged among them
And I felt a funny face
Was a worthless waste, caught a hopeless case
For sweet boys on sweaty days
Don't know what we craved, it remains unspoken
The longing outlived the place
Our artistic taste, it outlived the clothes we wore
When I feel uncertain now
I remember how we carry the feeling