Yeah, If I break will they still ride
All this pain but I still smile, yeah
They took my brother now my soul hurt
I've been tryna put them drugs down it won't work
Can't let em down cuz they depend on me
Everyday I'm just tryna become a better me
I know I need to learn to let it go and let it be
I'm asking God like why these demons in my memories
It's like the past got a grip
I just downed a 5th
Yeah you know me now but not the places that I been
Where do I begin
Fuck it now we rich
Gotta hide the pain it's getting harder to pretend, yeah yeah yeah
Call God like this time can you answer
If I'm hurting does it even really matter
325 got me out in Saturn
Tryna put the drugs down tryna break the pattern
Call God like this time can you answer
If I'm hurting does it even really matter
325 got me out in Saturn
Tryna put the drugs down tryna break the pattern
Survival of the fittest but I'm not living
I was taught to get it we survive different
If I want him gone then we gon go on it
If I'm out of town I put lil bro on it
On and off them drugs like when the cycle end
I've been chasing highs to feel alive again
And you said that you would ride you told a lie again
Ptsd just hit a high again
I got trust issues tell me what did you expect baby
That don't mean that you ain't different from the rest baby
Took my heart put me in cardiac arrest baby
All this baggage that I carry got to heavy
Call God like this time can you answer
If I'm hurting does it even really matter
325 got me out in Saturn
Tryna put the drugs down tryna break the pattern
Call God like this time can you answer
If I'm hurting does it even really matter
325 got me out in Saturn
Tryna put the drugs down tryna break the pattern