I been hurt so many times and now I'm always numb And now I'm asking questions like can I trust or just what is love And I been really hoping I can change just like the rest of 'em I'm an ordinary kid with depression and just a sharp blade yeah I don't know And I don't care Life is like a race No it's not fair Why should I be insecure about my looks or what I wear Yeah you wasn't there when I needed you So I don't care I running for my life Yeah you know I'm fighting these demons just every night I been thinking bout the good times not the bad times I'm just kidding Been thinking about the bad times Not the good times uh I just see grey and black Now you feel ya homies be talking behind your back It doesn't feel good but I'm used to it You never gave a shit And I just wanna quit Can I feel loved a bit You know I really miss you I just miss all of your love and miss the late nights on the phone Now you talking to another guy You send me straight tone And now I got this sharpened blade and I just cut way past the bone Ain't nobody helping me Now I'm on my own I don't know And I don't care Life is like a race No, it's not fair Why should I be insecure about my looks or what I wear Yeah you wasn't there when I needed you So I don't care