When I sleep, I don't wanna wake up
Fell behind, please, no one wait up
I don't wanna live life so hated
I just wanna show my mom I made it
Everyday, I wake up so lonely
Who am I if I don't know me?
All the doors seem to be closing
Really need someone to hold me
Every single day I close my eyes
I think about what it's like to feel alive, and oh man
Million things gone in my head
Wonder, will l dream this much when I'm dead?
They say, "Shake it off"
And everybody else says, "He fakes a lot", but I swear
More than anything, I feel scared
What if I'm never happy again?
What if everyone I love
And everybody on the ground and up above don't care?
I don't wanna be the one who's not there
Always gotta be the one, it's not fair
Thinking 'bout when I die
I've been thinking 'bout dreams in the afterlife again
Never mind, all I want is some friends
Or at least people that don't pretend
People that pretend I'm fine
Watch them all ignore my tears when they look into my eyes, fuck this
I'm all alone, you're all I miss
And all I want is one last kiss
I don't really know who I am
I don't really wanna be the one who's there at the end, my friend
Nobody cares, so why begin?
Nobody's here, so I commit
When I sleep, I don't wanna wake up
Fell behind, please, no one wait up
I don't wanna live life so hated
I just wanna show my mom I made it
Everyday, I wake up so lonely
Who am I if I don't know me?
All the doors seem to be closing
Really need someone to hold me
Every single day I close my eyes
I think about what it's like to feel alive, and oh man
Million things gone in my head
Wonder, will l dream this much when I'm dead?
They say, "Shake it off"
And everybody else says, "He fakes a lot", but I swear
More than anything, I feel scared
What if I'm never happy again?
Everybody wanna bring it to me
Everybody wanna be the act in a movie
I don't think anybody ever thought I couldn't do it, no
They talk and talk and I just block it out like I see through it
I know, yeah, I know, yeah
I know I should be better, I know I can do better
I know you couldn't breathe, but that's because I made the weather
I know you couldn't leave, but that's because I laid the pressure
I know you lived but now I wanna die
You made me laugh but now I wanna cry
You were my gift but now I'm out of time
I had your back, but now who's got mine?
Who's got mine? Who's got mine?
No goodbyes, yeah, no goodbyes
Rip my heart out when you look into my eyes, yeah
Rip my heart out when you finally realized that
I know, you know, I know
I know, you know, I know
When I sleep, I don't wanna wake up (I know)
Fell behind, please, no one wait up (You know)
I don't wanna live life so hated (I know)
I just wanna show my mom I made it
Everyday, I wake up so lonely (I know)
Who am I if I don't know me? (You know)
All the doors seem to be closing (I know)
Really need someone to hold me
Every single day I close my eyes (I know)
I think about what it's like to feel alive, and oh man (You know)
Million things gone in my head (I know)
Wonder, will l dream this much when I'm dead?
They say, "Shake it off" (I know)
And everybody else says, "He fakes a lot", but I swear (You know)
More than anything, I feel scared (I know)
What if I'm never happy again?
What if I'm never happy again?
What if I'm never happy again?
What if I'm never happy again?
What if I'm never happy again?
What if I'm never happy again?
What if I'm never happy again?
What if I'm never happy again?
What if I'm never happy again?