Ever since I was born, I wanted to die And when the clouds are torn, I fall through the sky And I bet when they fall, they all want to fly But when I fall down, I know that it's time Everyone tries to understand Like I'm one of them Like I'm just a man But they're living in wonderland And I can't come in and I can't commit But one thing I can commit is the Only sin that I feel within so I think about bleeding out Just sleep for now, just sleep forever Oh, you want me to die Welcome to the club It's not like I cared enough, nah No, not like you cared at all My friends they watched me fall And they watched me crawl, and My own head's spinning now Can't let it out, I wanna drown in Drown in my darkness You're heartless, I know this So, how dare you ask me To be happy when I can't be No, I got them laughing While I'm weeping inside my home I watch them pretend just to Feel good about themselves While I just descend, I'm not decent Do I deserve help? How can I live my life when I live my life thinking about death So, I put on a smile, I put out the fire So that we can pretend They all look at me but I look away 'cause my eyes are dead But at least they got to see the cool dude With the steadily declining mental health You don't Nah You don't You don't You don't You don't You don't You don't Nah You don't You don't You don't You don't