And as big as my heart is I keep dealing with hardship
And as big as my heart is I keep dealing with hardship
And I don't know if shit'll get better than this but I drift
Yeah I'm just hoping for the best but I never hold my breath at I'll win
Look the days are getting shorter and my nights are getting longer
My mind is wide awake but I'm out of bed exhausted
Childhood trauma some probably still haunt me
But problems never die they multiply just like a zombie
I've seen some wicked shit demons casting silhouettes
I keep a nestled head and big breasted pillow pets
Told me I'm her man but won't delete her OnlyFans
And when we are together are the times I feel the loneliest
And I just put myself in park pick myself apart before I ever start
And I got fam who don't fuck with me homies don't fuck with me
Phone work both ways and yet it's still up to me
Gang need a leader but I came with a liter
And I say it's for the stress but it's really way deeper
And I might put it in a song this ain't a fucking sing along
But I wish that I could live day to day find my way in this maze
But I can't get a grip on reality pain and normality shit
It's like you let someone in and it happens all again
So I shut em all out like the tomb of Solomon
Now I am a hollow man living in this hologram
And as big as my heart is I keep dealing with hardship
And as big as my heart is I keep dealing with hardship
And I don't know if shit'll get better than this but I drift
Yeah I'm just hoping for the best but I never hold my breath at I'll win