Selfishness is disease
I hope it won't take me
I hope it won't break me like it's breaking all my friends
Any means to an end
Is it really that fucked up that I'd rather be dead?
I know this will make me vulnerable
But I have to know
Did you ever care more than you showed?
When you left for 18 weeks
Did you ever think of me?
I hope that when you crack a smile
I fill your headspace for a while
And if you ever wondered why I'm always scared
I've seen people change and remain unaware
Like their loved ones were never there
I'm reaching out, I wish you cared
Would you dream of me
Even when I slip into anxiety?
Would you believe in me
Even if it cost you everything?
Would you dream of me?
When you sleep
I hear you calling my name
The air on your teeth
When you speak of me
When you speak of me
When you left for 18 weeks
Did you ever think of me?
I hope that when you crack a smile
I fill your headspace for a while
And if you ever wondered why I'm always scared
I've seen people change and remain unaware
Like their loved ones were never there
I'm reaching out, I wish you cared
Would you dream of me
Even when I slip into anxiety?
Would you believe in me
Even if it cost you everything?
Would you dream of me?
When you sleep
I hear you calling my name
The air on your teeth
When you speak of me
When you speak of me
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It's complicated, but I think I'll be fine
'Cause you can't turn the clock and you can't rewind
Still jaded, I missed all the signs
Fly, fly endangered, but with you, it won't fly
So hold your tongue and let me speak
When you left, it left me weak
Let's find out how far I sink
Tie anchors to my feet
When you left you for 18 weeks
Did you ever think of me?
I hope that when you crack a smile
I fill your headspace for a while
And if you ever wondered why I'm always scared
I've seen people change and remain unaware
Like their loved ones were never there
I'm reaching out, I wish you cared