Slow me down Play it in reverse How can I ever explain That no amount of medicine Could help me shake this curse Disrepair This mental hell Apathetic to my own condition I don't know how to feel Thoughts aggrieved with shame Am I the one to blame 'cause I just Need to believe That what I dream is what I'm seeing Crowned in pain And always searching for a change That could lead me to see Should I still believe Oh Well if I'm so deluded Would it really be such a sin to believe That I ever had a chance At happiness or relief The smoke and mirrors all crash down Isolation rots me to my bones I could never comprehend What it's like To feel safe in my own head I could never comprehend What it's like To feel safe in my own head Thoughts aggrieved with shame Am I the one to blame 'cause I just Need to believe That what I dream is what I'm seeing Crowned in pain And always searching for a change That could lead me to see Should I still believe Thoughts aggrieved with shame Am I the one to blame 'cause I just Need to be free Should I still believe