[Pretext: The codeine kicks in. I can't keep awake. Charon, here are two coins to carry me across. I sacrifice dirty blood and swallow the spirit of God. I'm peering at the surface. It's gorging on me, gnashing my skin. Falling down... time to depart. A created mistake to justify a need for depression. Over my soul - seape a silent discharge of regrets. The water ripples... you of no repent, here I come. I execrate my vision here... The water is warm and I'm dozing off, bashed...] [Note: "Självmord" is Swedish for 'Suicide'] - Självmord! Euphoric state of abnormality I reject the spectra of my past Master Satan evoke my decay Legions inside the ill-natured Deny creation and be the one with the horned Innocence lost when in contact with God A bleak reality, false conception The pain will persist until death takes me home Life is numbered by every regret Conception getting blurry Interwoven in dreams of death Of self-accusation and hate Sterilize myself from the others Awake my self-acceptance I am what I am no knife can change that The water is cold. Awake... Alive! With a ravenous discharge A ravenous discharge...