I watched a mother die.
That sticks deep within my mind.
There was nothing I could do.
That feeling of being so hopeless.
You showed me that there was love hidden in this hate set world.
But all the love I've ever had is 6 feet deep with you.
My love. nailed to a cross.
Buried deep and I'm so fucking lost.
Day by day losing my head.
If there were good in me it never resurrected.
I hear you in my dreams and I wake in pain.
These days i tread on this earth have never been the same.
I apologize for not being a man of god.
I must be the biggest disappointment a lost fucking cause.
Dead to the world.
I apologize for not being a man of god.
I must be the biggest disappointment a lost fucking cause.
Dead to the world.
I failed you.
If you are there watching over me, you've seen the shit I've done.
The pain I have inflicted onto those who have done me wrong.
I am sorry you had to bare witness to the things you don't condone. Everyday trying to hold my own without you here