I gave my things away. I called the people that I only see on holidays. This next year's gonna burn a hole in me. I spent my weekdays in my car And the weekends drinking hard enough for two. I think I'll settle down one of these days 'Til I catch my breath. I feel the weight of the world on my back. But I'm not feeling sick today. Cause I laid awake in bed, And thought of better times. I never wanna sleep, Cause I found apathy And laying down and never waking up. I learned a lot today. Cause there's a reason why I'll never live the easy way. I'm trying to be real. I wrote down words inside my arm That say I'll never walk alone cause I get tired. I know I have my friends in every way. So I caught my breath And for the first time I found what I'm looking for. Cause I laid awake in bed, And thought of better times. I never wanna sleep, Cause I found apathy And laying down and never waking up. Yeah I went down. Yeah I found the way In the city where my father was born I had a dream I moved out west. I finally found out what I wanted to be, So I picked up where I left. And I waited two more years, I covered up my ears. I think I'm ready to sing this time.