I don't even know where to start
Five years away from the place that I wanted
I, I'm still standing
Hard to even know what to say
I'm having trouble putting these words on paper
I, I, I'm still moving
I could tell you about my time in California
How I still miss the feel of the waves, wash my tears out
No, I can't put on a face when I'm talking to myself
I thought I'd die by now but somehow I'm getting stronger
No, I can't settle for this if I'm lying to myself
Instead of wasting time I guess I'm cursed to wander
I can't believe I got this far
And I can't believe I kept my car
All, all these miles
Who knows what's to come?
I'm having trouble staying in love
But I, I'll keep falling
I could tell you about that time that I broke down
On the side of 65 on the day that I moved out
No, I can't put on a face when I'm talking to myself
I thought I'd die by now but somehow I'm getting stronger
No, I can't settle for this if I'm lying to myself
Instead of wasting time I guess I'm cursed to wander
Heaven knows where I'll be headed as long as I can keep my nerve
Heaven knows if I'll be better, damned if I can make things worse
'Cause I'm still leaving
'Cause I don't need it
I thought maybe if I called the shots
It might not feel like I lost
But I, I'm still so low
So until I get what I want
Gone's the only thing I got
But I, I'm still standing