Since I left I need a medicine Just can't shake it off Waking up I'm on the fence again Don't know what I lost Saw I'm not in any photographs Took that like a punch Talking to myself right off the ledge Guess that's what I want Could say I missed out Could say I dodged a bullet A different lifestyle I don't know what to call it I don't know what to call it I hate it when I'm here I love it when I'm leaving I miss you when you're gone I'm floating in between Will I ever put my put my feet on the ground? Just be happy with the way it is now? I hate it when I'm here I love it when I'm leaving The more I feel alone The more I miss the deep-end Will I ever drop my bags on the ground? Just be happy with the way it is now? Biting through my tongue like fingernails I know I should stop Sorry that I had to bail again That's not what I want On a plane these thoughts are terminal Always on then off Somewhere in between I'm torn again No one knows I'm gone Could say I missed out Could say I dodged a bullet A different lifestyle I don't know what to call it I don't know what to call it I hate it when I'm here I love it when I'm leaving I miss you when you're gone I'm floating in between Will I ever put my put my feet on the ground? And just be happy with the way it is now? I hate it when I'm here I love it when I'm leaving The more I feel alone The more I miss the deep-end Will I ever drop my bags on the ground? And just be happy with the way it is now? Na na na na na na na