I've been thinking about how I used to hang out, smoking weed by myself Now I'm flying, for real put my seat belt on I'm overseas soon I'll be somewhere else It's funny how it gets so real so fast Dreaming of the afterlife or maybe you don't have to die I get so scared sometimes, I don't know what's next for me I don't know what's best for me no more All my friends doing Adderall I'm just trying to make it on the honor roll Slurring my speech till I said it all Filling my heart with the edibles All my friends doing Adderall I'm just trying to make it on the honor roll Slurring my speech till I said it all Filling my heart with the edibles It's just that I don't wanna get older, I don't wanna die I don't wanna be sober, I don't wanna cry I don't wanna get older, I don't wanna die I don't wanna be sober, I don't wanna cry ♪ I've been fooling around Sending pics, sending out zero fucks, it's a cop out And I know that my head might be brain dead, white flag I'm a forfeit, too bad, can't stop my world from collapsing I'm afraid of relapsing cause this limbo too fast, I might get carsick All these moving targets are IP to the home where my heart is Sometimes I wish I was back where I started All my friends doing Adderall I'm just trying to make it on the honor roll Slurring my speech till I said it all Filling my heart with the edibles All my friends doing Adderall I'm just trying to make it on the honor roll Slurring my speech till I said it all Filling my heart with the edibles It's just that I don't wanna get older, I don't wanna die I don't wanna be sober, I don't wanna cry I don't wanna get older, I don't wanna die I don't wanna be sober, I don't wanna cry It's funny how it gets so real so fast Dreaming of the afterlife or maybe you don't have to die I get so scared sometimes, I don't know what's next for me Don't know what's gotten into me, an entity But need to leave, leave me be All my friends doing Adderall I'm just trying to make it on the honor roll Slurring my speech till I said it all Filling my heart with the edibles All my friends doing Adderall I'm just trying to make it on the honor roll Slurring my speech till I said it all Filling my heart with the edibles It's just that