If I was gonna lose ya
Why'd you say yes?
Could've avoided the hole in my heart
To leave me here to die, yeah
Cry, yeah
Well at least I found I'm back at the start
Didn't pass "go", no
But do I get $200 though?
Cause I deserve that
But I guess I'll wait
Nevermind I'll walk away
I'll never get past the pain
It's easy to look at your life
When everything's going alright
But until that time, when your life's not right
And your mind deep inside
Beats you down in a fight
You try to push back
But it comes in spite of
You knowing that
This isn't time to be flying like a child, no
You're a grown man
Take a last stand
Before ya crash land it
But you goin' down, down
Try to scream out loud
But if you try they're gonna
Think you're a coward
Keep it to yourself (hush)
Lookin for the paintbrush
To show what's goin on
In that head you dread
Back to where I was
I was talkin' 'bout my love
Wait no- l-l-look at me stutter
As I talk about my lover (ugh!)
I'm on my deathbed
Thinking about what I said
It's makin me upset
This feeling that I dread
Hoping to be fed
By something I misread
Oh wait- I'm a zombie!
Don't listen to what I said
No wonder I copy
Cause I'm a sloppy
No good zombie with a body
I say zombie
You say groggy
I mean live with
No emotion
You left me behind to live your own life
Grabbed your ticket, took off on your flight
I bought the ticket but lost you with it
So I'll sit back and enjoy you leave, right?
I don't mean to be bitter but I
I just thought our love wasn't a lie
I just thought
I just thought
I just
I just
Wanna NOT
It's like a war in my head
Thoughts are running
I don't want it
But I seem to flaunt it
Put it all away what do I get?
Nothing in return.
You don't believe me? Bet
It's like a war in my head
Thoughts are rushing
Lots of huffin
Lots of puffin
I don't believe they're gonna catch up
Until I lie down and say pile up (pile up!)
Yeah when I popped the question (huh?)
Actually I don't even want to mention
The loss I mentioned
With apprehension
Cause in the present
The pain's apparent
So now give me attention
Cause nobody's gonna listen, no
Maybe I change up my vision, no
Maybe I know
Maybe I don't
Maybe I'm better alone
They keep on pressuring
Crush me down, now there's less of me
There's no telling what else I'll become
Yeah, after they're done with me
I don't like to be dwelling on something
Seemingly messy and talking
Bad 'bout my mem'ries, but now they're
Here to get back at me
I'll be honest
I'm tired
Wanna kick back
Let my thoughts run wild
So sick
And fed up
Pinned down by my mind, now get up
Cause that's what they think
They think I am weak
That I don't like my face in the dirt
But how absurd cause I like it, it works
So push me back down
And I'll show you what hurts
Sending them evidence
That I will never be delicate
Bout to show them what's evident
Cause now I'm triggering eloquence (ah!)
Look at me tryin to pretend I got etiquette
Cause I know with these beats
I'm 'bout to be in my element
This ain't the first time, last time, so make it rhyme
Make it climb in your prime all the time, anytime
Maybe during down time, maybe during half time
Maybe I'm supposed make it big during my life time (Hah!)
What a joke
Now I'm living like I'm broke
Whether I'm a liar it don't matter cause I'm gonna choke
Yeah, I'm a choke choke
Right under that smoke
Cause I can't breathe, somebody help me
It's funny cause I am just standing there
With no way to breathe in the air
Suffocating devastating irritating complicating
Activating aggravating agitating isolating me