I only knew you so well
I only wish that I knew you better
And though we didn't share the same mother
I still loved you, I still loved you
You were my brother
You were my brother
You weren't someone I was very close to
But you're still someone that I looked up to
All I ever really wanted to do was to get to know you
Just to get to know you, and get accepted by you
That's all I ever really wanted to do
I miss all the things I never got to know
All the differents sides of you that were never shown
And all the memories that never happened
And the ones that did
In my head they've seemed to blacken with time
They feel like they aren't mine
Like my mind stole them
Like it just wanted to hold them
And when that day came it started out like any other
I remember when I told God to take another
Please just someone else, please not my brother
Please just someone else, please not my brother
But by the end of it there was pain
There was a scar attached to my family's name
But God made his choice
I still remember the day when I forgot your voice
But I'll never forget my grandma's
When she screamed from across the room
It felt like a dream
I'll never forget the way she screamed
And what about papa?
You were just a boy
You were just a boy, you were just a boy
You were his boy
And you were only 18, you were only 18
And you had barely began living
You were only 18, you were only 18
And you had barely began living
I remember when I told God to take another
Please just someone else, please not my brother
But God made his choice, God made his choice
I remember the day when I forgot your voice
It just isn't fair
Not even after eight years
It just isn't fair
Not even after eight years
Not even eight years later
Not even eight years later
Not even after eight years